I have not visited the world xseño
in a week and the people have gotten a bit bitter. But what am I to do? In the
world at home, an army is being formed under my same roof. My young sisters
have learned how to work in a homemade army and a homemade drug shop- my
younger brothers have learned to be skilled in the trade. Osbaldo’s old house
is in a clearing in the woods, away from the city center. Adan has began
bargaining for the houses next to us. We are starting a new community. He is
trading pills for certain herbs and any crops that people can grow on this dry
land. He has send out chico’s to find a water source- and they have found one.
Things are changing so rapidly, and so my mind is occupied here.
In xseño Paula says the people have
wondered if I really am their creator. Of course I am their creator! I was the
one who made the pill; I was the one who took the pill. What other world would
be in my mind if it was not my own? The people here look anxious as they await
what I will do or say next. It seems I must find a way to spend more time in
xseño so I do not loose this world too.