La abuela used to talk of color, though it was hard for me to comprehend. The sky used to be a bright blue and not a musky, swampy green, she said, still I wasn't sure how she meant. The ground, she said, was a real green, covered in a short stiff plant with tiny blade like arms called grass. I have tried to type codes in and find the grass, but the color I still cannot display into my mind.

At first it was just another drug, the kinds you make as a kid, just better. I had mixed and matched, and used mi hermana's perritos nuevo to come up with a cleaner more sustainable kind of atmosphere- something no kid learns to do. When i got it up to experimental draft, I took my first try. The repercussions were beautiful, the ground came up all neat like in a silver and clean fog, the human structures began to insinuate changes when I looked upon them long enough, changes I started to wish for. Some bars to climb or a shoot to get to the top floor; they started to appear. Though in the real world it came to be a perception only, a flickering light that would die when I approached.

It's easy enough to understand the components that make the affect to parts of the allusion. We learned that long ago, though I've mastered it. With a little more Adrino and a little less Pitinine, I was able to up the the perceptions and dim the haze. Soon it conformed more within my head, than within the world. I spent less time in the streets and more time in my room, distorting and duplicating the tiny drawers on my bench, enlarging them and climbing inside.

I kept the charges up, but added Hallgenite and Tranite. I stayed in my bed but my mind wandered the streets, anywhere I wanted to go, anywhere I wanted to see, I went. I had conversations with el jefe and I  picked his mind, learning his secrets, later wondering if they were true. I spent a small amount of time at el laboratorio de gobierno learning certain tricks and comprehending it all. This is how I got here, this is how I created the xseño. This is why my worlds were never the same.